This may have been asked before? How do you picture yourself when you reach an age where you can just reflect on your life and just who you are? I guess I am wondering if you picture your retirement years being referred to as a woman or as an older man who crossdresses and still keeps secrets.
I guess when I picture myself in my grand years or even great grand years I see myself presenting more as a woman. I can picture myself always as a woman wearing cute older lady clothes and all my stuff neatly in my purse. I can see myself in the backyard sith a sundress of sorts and a large hat providing shade while I work on a garden, watching the grandkids play in the yard or at the lake, making lunch for the grandkids. This seems like what I want to be more then the grumpy grandfather bickering in the garage about the damn weather.
I have some memories of most of the women usually with a smile on their face and typically the men with a look of disgust or unhappy with something that did not go right that day. I don't want to be that grumpy guy.
I have a very difficult time picturing me as an old man sitting on a bench feeding the birds or what have you, I don't ever see me as an older man, what does this mean for me, I am not sure. I think I want to be the happy older lady.
how about you????