Something was said to me in another thread, a reply to a reply that bothered me. I am certain no offense was meant but yet I couldn’t help but take offense. Rather than possibly derail the other’s topic I decided to start a new thread.
What was said:
Originally Posted by ReluctantDebutant
I would take that pill. After 15 years of excepting my crossdressing it has yet to evolve into anything more then playing dress up in the closet. I don't feel female inside at all. And I would really like to know what I could do with all that emotional energy if I could apply it to something else.
If playing dress up with no femme feelings attached was all that it was for me, I wouldn't need a pill to stop....
Frat boys who had to wear a dress during pledge week don’t post here. Bob from accounts payable who dressed as his secretary once last year at the office Halloween party isn’t a member of this site. The guy who’s girlfriend want to do something kinky and have him wear her panties during sex doesn’t lurk on these boards. Member of a sketch comedy troupe (I never know why they never have any girls) don’t register a name here.
The People who do join and post on sites like this are those with a deep seeded urge to dress in the clothes of the other gender. The source of those urges can come from a sexual desire or a need to finally feel comfortable in one’s own skin. Regardless of their differences they both are powerful and cannot be just willed away.
I am ok with where my life is now. I crossdress when I get the urge, it doesn’t interfere with my normal life. I don’t live in a depressed mood over it. It’s balanced I get the one joy the crossdressing gives and the many joys not crossdressing gives me. But still…
Yes I’d gladly take that pill. Because forgive me if I don’t think the fear that someday I will have to tell some woman I love (if I am telling here she’ll be “the one”) about my crossdressing and she leaves me because of it or she leaves me because I didn’t tell here in time is worth playing dress up. Yeah forgive me for wanting that pill.
PS and don't give me the "if she didn't accept your crossdressing she couldn't have been the one" stuff. Because if she was the one sans crossdressing well that's just another strike against crossdressing and another reason for the pill.