What is it that makes it so difficult for some of us to have a successful relationship with a GG? Is it only the CD part, or something inherent in our personalities? For me, this seems to be true whether they knew about the CD'ing, never knew as far as I could tell, those that may have figured it out but never said anything, and those that had said things that indicated they knew, but said nothing about it bothering them until accidentally seeing me partially dressed. They've all had their issues with me, but was it the CD'ing, even if they never knew? Or just something about me, maybe different because of the CD'ing that turned them off, even if they never knew for sure.
I heard one telling her sister that she'd found "all these clothes and heels in my size in the house". From that point on I thought she had always known, but elected the don't ask, don't tell attitude. Late one night she found me on the computer in a dress, heels, and pantyhose. After a few exclamations she just went to bed, and me with her. For a few days she would make quits about heels and skirts, but never a big deal of it. I've been at a loss of what to say about it ever since.
I started crossdressing at about age 5, when I became bold enough to try on a pair of my mom's RHT stockings that I salvaged from the trash can. I quickly became hooked on the smooth silky feel. There was no sexual part of the activity, and never has been. I had slow, gradual increases that continued on long before I ever started dating. And to my surprise, afterward, as so many of us wellknow. I had always thought CDing would disappear from my life when I started dating - when I had real relationships with (GG's) real women. Why would I ever want to CD when I'd be with a GG to make me happy in every way? Maybe it's because the CD'ing was never sexual in nature, so even though the GG's were wonderful, it changed me in ways I never recognized, ways I never realized were hurting them, or changed my behavior in ways I never truly recognized. I used to think that if they would wear the really girl clothes my desire to press would disappear. that if they always wore pantyhoseor stockings, heels, heavy makeup, etc., that I wouldn't feel a need to. that wasn't really true either. iI helped, and I loved seeing than in pretty, feminine attire. One would Always wear pantyhose when we went out, no matter how hot it was, but she only wore toeless nude pantyhose when it was hot. I can't say I blame her there. She always suspected, sometimes asking if that's what I wanted. I came very close to telling her (even now). What has stopped me is she said she broke things off with a guy who she caught wearing her clothes. I always wondered if it was that it was her clothes that caused it. that if I let.her know I have more than enough of my own if she'd be OK with it. I've bought her about 30.cute dresses and 60 pairs of nice quality shoes - mostly heels. She says she likes them all and wants to get married. I can't though, unless I can have at least some certainty that she would also accept me having my own. At this stage, I could probably be happy if I only dressed in the house. I'm too old, with too many male features to blend in anymore, let alone pass. How much could she tolerate? I guess that's the million dollar question, and the really risky one. Some can't tolerate any of it. And when would she finally let me know?