Hi, I just cant believe what I just did!!!!
I am still completely in the closet, and always have been really scared about figuring out that I am a CD.
Well, today I got brave and decided to go to a bar that I thought it was a good place for crossdressers (they advertised that Tuesday is TGs, TSs, and CDs night), so I decided to go and give it a try, so I dress, put a thong, a bra, pantyhose, and a blouse, and in top of that I wore jeans, socks, regular shoes and a hoodie, so eventhough I was completely underdressed I just looked like a regular guy. But I also bring a small backpack and inside put a new skirt, a pair of heels and a wig just in case I feel brave and decided to dress up in the bar.
When I finally got to the bar I felt disappointed, it wasn’t what I expected, it was quite empty, extremely dark, and there where only three or four guys and the rest where trannys trying to sell a lap dance, so I decided to leave, and I was quite frustrated that I couldn’t tried my heels out of home for the first time, so I was just walking and then walk through Church Street (if you’re familiar with Toronto this is the LGBT area), and suddenly I just thought “Hey, I really wanna walk with my heels in the real street for the first time at least for a minute”, and I just sat on a bench, took out my shoes, my socks, and wear my heels over my stockings, wow, it was great, although I was in drab, it was great to be walking in heels in the street, listening to the “clap clap” of my own shoes, after that when I finally arrived to the subway I just decided to try to keep going, so I enter the subway still in heels, took the train, then changed trains at an interchange station and went like 10 more stations just like that, and then, I decided to get the bus still in heels, and let me tell you that no one really cared about this guy in drab, wearing heels, I don’t know if people didn’t notice or not, but no one really blink an eye, except for one old guy that he just stared at me with a shocking face, but in the moment that I look at him, he just turn around his sight.
Then I decided to go off the bus quite before arriving at home, so I went out of the bus, and decided to walk home thru the boardwalk at the lakeshore to keep enjoying my heels, and suddenly, I dont know how or why, without thinking I just stopped and sat in a bench in the dark (without even thinking) and just took out of my backpack my skirt and put it over my jeans and then remove my jeans, and took out my hoodie, and put on my wig!!!!!
So I just walked about 3 or 4 kms enfemme, it was a little after midnight, but there was still few people at boardwalk, and although I know that there was no way that I could pass, nobody really cared, and I felt great, and need to confess that everytime that a person was near by I got really nervous, but at the same time another part of me wanted to cross in front of more people.
I even stay in another bench for a while just looking at the lake feeling like a cute girl, IT WAS AMAZING, I still cant believe what I did, and it was all without even think of it, everything was so spontaneous, without planning it and it was perfect, I was frustrated when I leave the bar because it wasn’t what I expected, but I never imagined the great great surprise that tonight got for me, and what I was able to do, and to see that nothing happened, and honestly I am still excited of what I did, I think that maybe one of my neighbours could spoted me when I arrived, but honestly Im not worried about it. So, this was my first big step to the outside world, and honestly, I think it helped a lot that I am new in town to get the nerve to do it.
Thank you all for the time that you spend reading my story.