I grew up in the fifties and you learned early in life to hide anything that was femme.To avoid ridicule or worse from other kids,parents and even teachers you put on a front and buried anything that wasn't "manly''.As you grew older you often tried to pretend to yourself often by drinking and drugs or whatever other means that you were like all the other guy's and if you ignored it long enough it would go away.You went beyond what was expected of a normal guy and did super macho things sometimes even risking your life to prove how strong and tough you were.Anything that even hinted of the girl inside you was masked to the outside world.Now that I'm older its still hard but I'm starting to let it out.I don't care what people think anymore.I,ve raised my family,been a fairly decent husband and done good to those I could and if they think I'm a little femme now because I pierced my ears and grew my hair out and look after my nails and shave my legs too f-----g bad.I buried her for too long.I've accepted her and if they can't well guess what "adios" to them.