I never had an attraction to the undergarments and the clothing for me was incidental to painting my nails, wearing my hair long, having my ears pierced
and the absence of body hair and later experimenting with cosmetics which was about using the face as a canvas to paint on for dramatic effect ,but mainly for my own enjoyment
My senses dictated what I was attracted to, not a conscious desire to look like a girl, which happened as a result of assembling all the little pieces and parts of what I was attracted to.
All very gradual starting around five with the interest in clothing paralleling my interest in theater toward the end of high school and all throughout college.
I do not create a mood by crossdressing but respond to one that already is there, so it is not about movement from one place to another but the expression of the place I already am in.