Eleven months ago, at age 65, I unexpectedly found myself saying yes to crossdressing. At that time it was a conscious yes. Now i do not find that I even think about a yes or no. Sorry world there is no more time for decisions or discussing it. I am a crossdresser, and actually very seriously transgendered with a growing female presence i never knew existed, but is now overwhelming me.
So, for the first 65 years, was I saying no? As I look back, I see the signs that I was enamored with the female side of things, but at no time thought about crossdressing, so did I say no? I watched the girls in their stilettos and miniskirts, and halter tops, but thought it was normal male activity. Was it that or was it the seeds of what i really enjoy, and by just watching, was i saying no?
All food for thought as I try to figure out why the hell it took me so long to realize what it really was that I was meant to do by observing these female activities so closely. As usual dear Freddy has struck the nerve that gets us thinking. So, I feel that while I never crossdressed, I never said no. I was just ambivalent (Some would say too stupid to know better).
No ambivalency today. I AM A CROSSDRESSER. I cannot live without dressing feminine in some form everyday. I have other issues beyond crossdressing, I know this now, and am dealing with them, but nothing will ever take away me recognizing and accepting and embracing the fact that i am a crossdresser first.
Thanks Freddy, Barbara