i have a little prob at the moment.
my wife knows most stuff about me, theres very little held back these days but it was not always this way.
i was having a bit of a crisis a good few years back and figured at the time that to introduce her to a tg forum/chat that id been on infrequently (anyone remember tgsource ?) , it was not a great idea, a few tg/Cd's and a gg there chatted with her a small bit but she was not happy about it at all , there was a few other problems at the time which did not help but she stated back then that it was not my being tg that was the issue but that the fact i was talking to men and women i did not know ,about personal issues. it led to an argument and her stating that she was not happy with me being on any tg forums etc.she did not like the idea of me having a name either .at the time she understood i cded a bit but having a name or getting too indepth on my fem side was an issue .
with the other problems as well i found myself doing the old denial thing again, convincing myself i was being weak for one reason or another and burying my issues for years more until it came to a head again .
at this stage she knows well id rather be a woman but she knows I'm committed to her and love her dearly .
i told her recently i wanted to start a facebook account and mentioned some posts i had read on here. i asked her a few times to pick a name she liked that i could use just so i could get general info that might help me but again she was not happy about it and asked me not to do it .the forum helps me a good bit when i need it and is a great source of info and Ive found facebook to be nice for just casual kinda chat or generally getting sent fashion tips/tricks/pics. i do feel guilty about it though and am not sure what to do . should i shut the accounts and say nothing/tell her , tell her outright i have them and let her choose?, say nothing and keep them ? i really don't like being dishonest with her but i feel it will be bad for tara if i close them . i am being patient about it all and feel her attitude has softened a bit over some months but the longer i keep this from her the worse it may seem .
it is a big deal talking about me having a fem name too. she knows the name i choose a long time ago but does not like it on a few levels .
she has called me stuff like her bitch or a drama queen but calling me a name is a step too far for her at present . i suppose that is something for time to sort out but what to do about the forum and facebook ?
thanks for any input .
Tara
edit ... i hope this does not seem like i am complaining about my beloved as i do know how lucky i am to have the support and love i have .
also ... if she calls me her bitch it is meant in a loving/fun/amorous way in is never meant to be an insult .