Last night my wife asked me about a crossdressing high heel shoes website that was detected by our antivirus software. She know's that I'm a crossdresser, but prefers to not think or even talk about it and I'm very private with it. At first I tried to pawn it off on my teenage daughter who is always online looking at clothes, but that was childish so I confessed. The hardest part was the tone of revoltion from my wife, almost disgust that I would even consider wearing women's shoes.
I know that a marraige is built on trust, but I think my wife would have much preferred not knowing about my feminine side. She'd probably rather find out that I have cancer than know that I'm a crossdresser since at least that's "normal". I wonder if she realizes that many of the aspects that she likes about me are due in large part to the woman who is inside of me.
I should have told her my secret before we were married, but then we would have likely not married and I wouldn't have the wonderful kids and memories that I now have.
I guess one advantage to being honest is that at least she didn't find out through my internet use and I was the one who told her.
Thanks for listening.