Earlier in the year I moved across country with my family who left one week before me. While the purpose was for me to pack up and drive the Uhaul it was a perfect opportunity for me to dress...and dress I did! But right before I put the last box on the truck I tossed everything I owned out of guilt. Literally hundreds of dollars worth of shoes, skirts, tops, dresses, and lingerie.
Why did I feel guilty? While my wife knows I dress she has said before she likes a manly man. She likes me hairy, masculine, and looks to me as her protector. But even with that being known she doesn't pitch a fit when I completely shave or wear panties. She may raise an eyebrow but she has known for a couple of years now and overall our marriage has not changed because of it.
The guilt I feel is with my kids. I am now blessed with two young daughters. My older one is coming to the age of learning what boy clothes are and what girl clothes are. I feel a huge amount of guilt about wanting to be Julie and having all my clothes in the house without them finding out or knowing how to make excuses if they find out.
I say excuses because one thing my wife has made clear is she does not want the girls knowing. Any advice on this is greatly appreciated as the shopping urge is starting to come once again since I haven't dressed since the end of january and no longer have any clothes...