For many years I've been reading about the thoughts, ideas, feelings and events experienced by my sisters on this forum and now I have the need to express my sadness for what has recently occured in my life for now I'm alone for the first time in 55 years and there are nobody else out there who can relate as well as you folks can.
For 52 years I was married; however the last 25 were loveless years. Yes, my former wife put up with my CD activity as long as she didn't have to see or talk about it.Since I knew it would take at least two years to rewrite my memoirs and at age 84(at that time) there couldn't be too many years left for me I decided to leave Washington state and move 3000 miles to join my widowed cousin in Florida. For the previous year we corresponded by e-mail and she had also read my first book in 2002so she knew I was cross dressing. Making a long story a bit shorter we fell in love and she 100% accepted my dressing. So for the next three years when I wasn't writing we lived the Country Club life --- life was good. There were small events after I first arrived when she would start an argument about nothing. After these incidents became more frequent and she began to forget things we did a few days before like a movie or a dinner --- I still didn't think much of it other than older people do tend to lose some of their memory --- a normal thing. Then, in the last two months the dementia suddenly increased dramatically into full blown Alzheimer's. What makes it such a horrible malady the person affected has no idea that anything unusual is happening to them (doesn't need aides or any help). Now she has aides 24/7, I rented an apartment and she no longer remembers me or that we were close for over 80 years. I suppose what makes it even more gut-wrenching: she was the first woman who I both loved and who accepted me fully as a CD. Now it is all gone.
I had to tell someone so thank's for listening.
Julie
Baarbar Ella; Appreciated your directions