As many of you know, I have waffled over transition for the last year. I have done so because of the implications transitioning would have on my family and my marriage. A few minutes ago, I realized something. I have no future plans for my life as a man. Every single plan I am making right now is focused on the goal of living as a woman.
I feel as though I could continue to get up, go to work, come home and go to bed as a man. I could exist as a man. But I also feel as though there is nothing but emptiness there. Every plan that excites me, every dream that interests me, every thing that I look forward to involves being a woman.
Did you ever come to such a moment? What did it mean to you?
Anna