I've been dressing for a while. It's definitely gone through phases, and i'm certainly glad i don't have to completely hide it and stash things under drawers and in the back of closets.
That being said, i still have no idea where this fits into my life or how to figure that out, and i have momentary surges of interest in outing myself simply to be able to talk about it with other people than the few i've trusted, and my wife.
I'm just not sure a) if it's only a sexual/fetish thing, should i really be trying to tell people about it, or is that just weird and creepy?
b) if it's not, how do i figure out how and where this fits in to my life, and learn how to get over the shyness of not going outside or showing anyone ever. I just chickened out on doing any sort of costume for our halloween party a few days ago, and i'm mildly annoyed about it.
additionally, even if i do consider it more a part of my life than just a momentary thing i enjoy, does that mean i fit somewhere in the 'trans' spectrum? the few people i've talked with that were trans seemed to be almost offended that i was trying to include myself.
I'm pseudo-planning to dress up for a convention in january, but i am worried i'll back out on that too.