Back in the stone age, when I grew up (also known as the fifty's) there was no place to find out anything about the subject. In my teens a magazine did an article about Christine Jorgenson, that was interesting, but it didn't seem to apply to me, I didn't feel like I was in the wrong body, I just liked to dress in my sisters stuff when no one was looking. In my early twenties I heard the work Transvestite, some how in the context it was used I knew it had something to do with what I had done since I was around six years old, but wasn't sure just what it meant, I tried to look it up in an old Websters dictionary, but they didn't have it in there. I had been taught in school, about the root of words, so I broke it down into parts and looked them up, Trans meant to cross over, Vestite, was not there, so I broke it down, Vest, and article of clothing, cross over and clothes, that was as close a I got. So I went in to a dirty book store one evening, and found a magazine about She-males, I was repulsed, that just wasn't me either they called them chicks with d@%ks. I shuddered and didn't look for anymore on it. Then I found a book about a transsexual that had gone to Mexico and had a sex change, The name of the book was Candy, its what she called herself, things didn't go so well for her, but she taught me a lot. I never did learn much more about it, until the INTERNET, and a forum much like this one, except it cost to belong to it. I've really learned as much about crossdressing and crossdresser right here on this site as I did all the rest of my life, but by then I had already accecpted who and what I am for what it is, it's just me, I've done it all my life and will most likly do it all the rest of my life, and I was lucky to find a women that understands my need to do it.