Now visiting with family. Love being with them. However, some of them commented about the change in my appearance. They're used to seeing me with facial hair and a little heavier looking. They said I looked so young. Told them I shaved my beard off to be Clark Kent for Halloween event. When one of the younger ladies commented on how young I looked and that I was "The Hot Grandpa", I decided to stay clean shaven. I also talked about how I'm working out and losing body fat and toning my muscles. Both statements very true. But, there's more to it now.
About 15 months ago, I decided to permanently hang up my stockings (why is a story for another day). At that time, I told almost everyone in my family about my CDing to help hold me accountable. Up to now, temptations were successfully squelched and many times I would contact family members for both accountability and encouragement. I've failed.
Well, losing weight and keeping facial hair off, not only makes me look younger, but also more feminine (other than being 6'4). I've got naturally wider hips than most and my upper body is a little smaller than most men of my stature. On top of that, I've been waist training for a week, and lost 1 inch already. I've never taken such grand steps towards feminization so quickly. I think they also see a new, honest joy emanating from me. I'm trying to exude masculinity to compensate, but I think I'm failing.
I want to tell two of my daughters (29 and 26 years old). I have utmost confidence they can keep it to themselves. The only thing holding me back is the disappointment. They are very supportive. They said they would love and support me if I went the other way. They just want me to be happy. But, I was insisting on never CDing again. What will they think of me? I'm a failure.
I'm open for advice.
Anne B.