I started to reply to the straight CD vs gay CD thread but I have more on my mind then the scope of that thread.
A little background: I am married CD with two small children. I love my wife and I am very attracted to her. Just this year I began to come to terms with my CDing and gender identity issues. I came out to my wife about all of this and she has been very supportive. I have always told myself I am straight and tried my best to deny that I was a CD or had any gender identity issues. Well I am at the very least a CD and I have always felt to some degree that I should have been born female.
I have been openly discussing all if this with my wife lately and one topic of discussion was my sexuality. The gay vs straight CD thread as well as past similar threads got me thinking. After reading the responses I feel like I am in the minority and don't fit in with most people here. I feel I am definitely not straight, I guess I'm bi or bicurious, however you want to classify me. I love women and I'm very much in love with and attracted to my wife but I am attracted to men as well, although my standards seem to be pretty high.
My attraction to men is primarily sexual and centers around me as a woman. However I don't think this magically goes away and I turn straight when I'm not dressed. I'm one and the same person whether I'm dressed as a man or woman, I just feel that part of me is female. I have had fantasies about men for awhile now, mostly with me dressed, and some are pretty intense. I don't plan on acting on these fantasies since I am married and love my wife and would never to anything to risk my relationship with her or my family.
This is tough for me to deal with and I kind of feel alone in this forum. Every thread I see in this forum discussing sexuality is usually filled with replies professing how straight as an arrow everyone is and I'm left thinking "really, am I that messed up?". Are any of you like me?