I'm at a point in my life where I'm feeling very confused and overwhelmed. I've been dressing for 30+ years now (I'm 42), and always felt that I could draw the line between my male and female identities. Until now. My wife and I have an "accomodating" relationship when it comes to my dressing, but lately that's jsut not good enough. I told her right away when we started dating that I was a CD and that she has to be ok with that, and she said she was. 9 years later now and it's still just "ok". I feel so alone with my dressing and trapped. I've never been out dressed and want to soooo badly!
Anyways, I've booked an appointment with my MD to get a referral for councelling. I will be telling her that I am a CD, but I am stuggling with TG feelings. I hope that she can find a councellor for me to work through these feelings. I'm nervous about telling her, but I really feel that I need to get this out. She may suspect I'm CD anyways, as I always wear panties (very plain though) to my appointments, but nothing has ever been said. We do get along very well, and she is not the judging type, so all should be good.
I'd love to hear from anyone who's in a similar situation, or who is in councelling now. What is your experience, and is it helpful? I think right now my biggest fear is actually discovering that I'm more TG than I think I am. The thought of transitioning has crossed my miind many times over the course of my life, but I never thought I would ever do it. Now, I have doubts about that, and it scares the crap out of me!
Regards,
Sarah