The question you ask about crossdressing may be a hard one for many crossdressers to answer. If they are a crossdresser who wishes to be a woman in reality, their answer would be totally different from mine! I have never wanted to actually be a woman in the 60 plus years that I have crossdressed! I am very happy to be a man, but I do like to wear feminine clothes. I told my late wife that I was a crossdresser when I proposed to her and she accepted me "as is!" We had almost 50 happy years together before cancer took her! Since she was much better at it than I was, she always did my makeup and fixed my wig when I went out in public as Stephanie. And many times she went out with me! We had a good life together, because she was much more important to me than crossdressing, and even though she is now deceased she is still that important to me!!