17th December 2012
Well I did it. I finally stepped outside the front door as Sarah. I knew I had an evening to myself and time to dress tonight. I bought myself a coat last week. It is something those of us stuck in our own homes dream about doing and as I head towards the wrong end of my 40s after 30 years of dressing I feared I met get too old to try.
Thanks for the all the girls who gave me advice last week when I posted about my plans. I downgraded the heels to a lower pair. I am so glad I did.*
I will post photos of me just before I left tomorrow.*
All of you who do this regularly will know how excited I now feel. It was an amazing rush.*
I dressed and stepped outside my flat front door. I took a 10 minute walk around our block and past a few shops. I passed about 20 people. I neither stared or ignored them. I just held my head high and walked as though I was meant to be there. To *be honest I don't think anybody paid me much attention. I am sure I was either read by a middle aged guy or he was interested!? But nobody else seem to notice me.
I got back to the flat after my first 10 minutes with my feet killing me. I am used to tottering around the house for a couple of hours in heels but I wasn't really prepared for the walk outside. As I let myself back in the immediate thought was to do it again - but this time in a skirt instead of my leather look jeggings. I smartened up my makeup, got changed into my dress and went out this time for 20 minutes and into a slightly more populated area and along a main road. I passed so many people and of course nothing happened!*
As I grew in confidence I realised even if I was 'read' what did it matter? They didn't know who I was, I was doing no harm and at worst they would just think there is one of those TVs. London does feel a tolerant city in the right places!*
The problem is working out how quickly I can do it again. I need to work on my make-up and wig a bit more to feel even better. I think I will go to a dressing service next time to see how good I can really look. Anybody got any good recommendations for central London?
Sorry to go on for so long - but I am on cloud 9 at the moment. Thanks for all the words of encouragement.*
Sarah is out!