I originally told my wife about my CDing a year into our marriage. She was not happy about, a lot of tears and anger and she said she didn't want to know about it. At the time I had told her it was just a kinky fetish, something I think I actually wanted to believe at the time. Flash forward 7 years, the urge to dress has been overwhelming lately. I tried to talk about it with her about a month ago and she said I must be gay and that if I have to do it I should do it without her. So a few weeks ago I made my first order. Was sooo happy with my purchases, but the guilt of going behind her back and the stress that she might one day find it was stressing me out big time. So I sat her down and said we need to talk about the thing she didn't want to talk about. I told her how I no longer thought that this was a fetish, that this was part of who I am, that I have had these desires all my life. I even printed out and read this article to her - http://www.gendertree.com/Helping%20...%20Dresers.htm
While there were no tears this time and no anger, she said she still wants no part in it. She still thinks its just a fetish, saying that she has weird sexual fantasies but she doesn't feel the need to act on them and doesnt understand why I have to. She also said she could never wear lingerie again which made me really sad. She equated her wearing lingerie to bringing an alcoholic to a liquor store, even though I tried to explain to her that I love when she wears lingerie. We've been having a great sex life lately but now she's convinced that I only wanted to have sex with her all the time to replace my urges to dress (she could be half right there). She's also convinced even though I have told her so many times that I have no desire to ever transition to being a woman for real that if she goes along with the crossdressing then it will lead to that down the road. So it seems I am back where I started from, stuck in the closet with no one to have fun with. The only somewhat positive thing came when she asked me why I bought my own things and didn't just wear hers. I said does that mean I can wear your things if I want? She said "what, you need variety?!?" I said yes of course. She thought about it and said as long as I put everything back so she doesn't know what I wore it would be ok. I guess that's kind of progress right? Still I was hoping for a more positive experience after pouring my heart out to her. Seems she is never going to fully accept my feminine side...