I find myself not only checking out the fashion, but the hair and makup too. I'm trying get get a better feel of what look I could pull off and would help me blend in for someday when I get up the nerve to go out dressed. Lets face it I'm mid forties, I can't try to dress or wear my hair and makup like a twenty year old. I'm am also very attracted to women but I sometimes find myself thinking "oh my god if had her body and looks".