When I started on this forum about a year ago I had only vague, faded memories of my early crossdressing days. Since then I've somehow had many of the memories return to me, with more coming to the fore with each month. I can now remember the first times that I wore panties, as an emergency replacement provided by mom from cousins while traveling. I'm even remembering some of the specific dresses and other items that I obtained from my sisters' closet, and how I came by them.
It seems that these memories were unintentionally suppressed through the years, perhaps as a natural response to the shame I felt for so long. They are emerging now only as I come to accept my crossdressing as an important and healthy part of my life, and I look forward to the continuing flood from the past.
I speculate that I'm far from alone in this memory recovery, especially since so many of us have had cause to suppress the past from our consciousness. Any kindred spirits out there with similar experiences?
Miriam