I apologize in advance for grammatical errors and general nonsense. I just got home. I had a long, tough day at work. I decided to go have a beer when I got back to my hometown. Well, I had a few more than planned. I didn't get totally sh*tfaced or anything. BUT, I get this weird feeling as if I'm outside looking in. I see all the people partying and carrying on. Sure, I see and talk to some good friends, but it doesn't seem to go on beyond " Hey, what's up". After a while all the rest of the people seem like a rerun movie I've seen a hundred times. There's all the characters, the old barflys, the newbies, the dudes on the make, the dudes that just wanna get smashed, the hot chicks that look down at most of the guys, the chicks that are really insecure, the bar staff that's just trying to do their jobs, etc, etc,etc. I just sit and wonder. It seems like I cannot connect with anybody there on any kind of deeper level and I wonder why I am there at all. After a short time of all that I can handle, I am home now. I feel the only times I really feel "included" and "whole" is when I am with family and/or enfemme with my cd sisters. Does this seem to happen to you as well? I am just gonna click the "submit" button before I realize how silly and strange I sound right now.