Hi everyone,
Just trying to see if anyone else out there has this same issue:
I'm a man who hasn't started taking male hormones yet, I was born female. This might get confusing so just hold on. I also started cross-dressing (as in, wearing girls clothes and underwear) at a pretty young age, but only in private and only (tmi alert) for "thrills", as in, only for a few minutes if you know what I mean, because then I 'come down' and feel a little disgusted and ashamed, its like, "what am I doing??" It's an erotic and private thing for me. Going outside in girls clothes, it would have to be a costume with a wig or something, and not during the day! I don't mind performing on stage in a miniskirt and heels, because its obviously to look sexy and for exhibitionism. No one hopefully thinks that's how I really am, it's just a persona.
I know there are tons of bio males who feel the same way as me on this, as my story resonates particularly well with other men who like to dress for the same reasons.
But I would be too scared to talk about this with any of my trans guy friends, what if they said, "well obviously you're a confused little girl" and then I would feel very depressed and lonely indeed. So I look to you, FTM people of the Internet, maybe we have something in common?