Hi Sarah - I'm an older girl, and I can understand about not being content with the results of your cross dressing. I had been dressing in secret for a long time, and openly for a much shorter time, but only recently have I come to understand that I'm transgender. As recommended by KellyJ above, I would suggest that you seek gender counsel, and particularly from a specialist that serves our trans* community, not simply a family therapist, or someone who deals with "sexual" matters.
I've been fortunate in having been turned on to a licensed clinical psychologist with a specialty in gender issues, and she is very familiar with "us." Her sessions are lighting the way for me to develop my own understanding of who I am, and that the person I am inside is not based on my clothes, hair, my makeup, my posture or my mannerisms. Those are important in feeling better about myself, sure, but nonetheless, are outward manifestations of who I really am inside this male body. I suggest that you consider the same approach.
Your local LGBT community, or that of the nearest big city near you, will likely have several resources on the net that can point you at a good counselor. Good luck and be strong dear, Elfin
