please could one of you lovely ladies give me some advice
i have been crossdressing since i was about 10 and am now 48 yet i have never been fully dressed. married for 26 years and because i didnt want to decieve my future wife so i bit the bullet and told her i crossdressed before we got married and yet she still married me. she even bought me tights
we have 2 grown up children who both know i crossdress my son doesnt care and my daughter is a godsend she buys me tights. all our friends know, my parents know. but still i cant dress
The situation now is that i suffer from depression, my wife wont allow me to have any money, i cant go out on my own, not even to my friends, she wont allow me to be alone if we are at our friends, if i try to break any of these rules she goes ballistic if i get caught wearing tights she physically rips them off me, she calls me derogatory names and because i get more confident when i drink alcohol shes banned that.....
trouble is now its got that bad i cant see any way out other than suicide.....told doctor and asked for help, but no good, if i left id have to sleep on the streets, i lye awake in bed at night and wonder which would be the best way to end my miserable existence.....as my wife tells me i am just `a worthless piece of ****