I dressed up yesterday to take a picture so my avatar and profile wouldn't show a blank gray little box. I started to just put in a little smiley face or one of the cartoon characters but for some reason I wanted you all to see what I was wearing. I got out my camera and after charging its batteries I finally found the instructions on setting the timer so it would take pics while I posed. The first few pics I took and downloaded them on my computer I just sat and stared at. I guess it is like looking in the looking glass the first few times you apply lipstick, or that feeling you get when you wear it only around the house and drink from a glass and leave a lip stain on the glass or straw. It makes you think wow I can do this in small steps. I have now moved many small steps and now that Liz is helping me it has moved fast. As I sat and just stared at my lips the first time they were reddened so I sat and stared at my pics I took. Wondering who am I really supposed to be in life? Aroused but yet satisfied, calm but yet nervous, excited to show every one on here but scared, wanting to show my face but scared to show my face, wanting to go farther but wanting to stay hidden within. The more I get into CD the more I am wanting to express my self with more heels n clothing, and the undergarments, but at the same time scared of the road ahead that I know is coming but anticipating it and wanting the changes. Who knows where it will end but the pics seemed to tell me something inside is stirring me onward. I took over a hundred and still I don't know the women inside me that is trying to say hello. Jaylyn
I also ordered some 5.5 inch heels yesterday ( which I will probably break my neck on) and some breast forms. I ordered them and told the sales lady I was a cross dresser and needed to look more feminine. That is a big step not a small one for me. How fast should I get into this? I usually go slow and enjoy the ride but this is exciting. Will it wear off and become stale? Right now and yesterday I was on a high.