I'm not exactly sure why, but I feel like sharing what has happened to me in recent time.
2 months ago, I had never even heard the term "crossdressing" before. In early march, I was home alone one day, and wanted something awesome to do with the rare opportunity, and had remembered how much I had always enjoyed dressing like a girl. So I decided to start searching around on google, and came across this site. I was so excited to find that there were others that were just like me! I started to become more and more interested in all of this, and even started shopping for myself. Things seemed to be going pretty smoothly for me!
At first, I was very nervous about all of this. I only told a few very close friends, who I felt would be supportive of me. Some reacted better than others, but I still felt fairly okay about everything at the time.
Then my parents found out... after one of my close friends started hinting at it to them, they came to me, fairly upset. My parents are very strongly religious, and being 18, I am still stuck under their roof, and got hit pretty hard by the chastisement. At this point, I started to try to keep it a little more secret, seeing how the majority of people who found out weren't very happy about it.
I decided to turn to some extended family who are a lot more open minded, and they responded with open arms, being as friendly as can be. I started spending a lot of time with this side of my family, and tried my best to keep it a secret from my parents, knowing that they would not react well to it. Now this seems pretty simple right now, but there's a lot more to it. I was scheduled to leave on an LDS mission in late April, but around early April, I had gotten second thoughts about going (not relating to dressing). And for those who don't know, Mormons have some high expectations when it comes to boys going on a mission.
It was starting become a problem that I knew that my little secret was spreading through the family, and I wanted the story to be clear for everyone...
On April 10th, I publicly announced on Facebook that I had decided to not go on a mission, and that I was a crossdresser. This started a world of problems.
My whole family started to take sides, and a very large feud began to tear things apart. There are those who support me in making my own choices and living my own life (who I have made plans to move in with soon), and there is the side who are against all of it.
Right now, I am in the middle of being lectured and patronized by my whole family, and my parents, aunts, uncles, and cousins are having a huge heated debate over it.
I'm 18 years old, I am proud to be a cross dresser, and I don't care that almost everyone I know now, knows that about me. I enjoy it very much, and it has become a very big part of me that has made me very happy! Although it may have ruined some relationships, and may cause plenty of conflicts in the future, I don't feel bad for any of it! I have actually felt surprisingly calm about the whole thing. As the hurricane rages around me, I'm sitting calmly in the center of it.
Thanks for reading... I just felt like venting
-Felicity