You'll laugh at me - you really will - but I finally GET IT. I know what it is that motivates me to present as Paula. I realized it as I was driving to my TG support group meeting tonight. I went there tonight, fully en femme, with no satchel of male clothes to switch back into. I was committed for the evening.
And you know what? I couldn't stop smiling all evening. I was simply happy.
That's it - that's what I feel. Happiness.
Isn't it stupid that it took me THIS LONG to understand such a simple thing?
I am happy being Paula. That's the long and short of it.