Then I hope yo won't mind the head's up: now that you're free, it's not uncommon for the pendulum to swing considerably. This is how my SO (who identifies dualgender) explained it to me. For years and years while growing up (and possibly keeping things under wraps with a SO for some CDers), the pendulum was swung more to the male side. And then once free, or for some CDers once full self-acceptance is reached, the pendulum does swing way over to the femme side ... almost like the pressure cooker exploding after having been put on boil with little or no steam outlet. But eventually if someone is not transsexual and slated for full transition, the pendulum does swing back to center. For my SO, this means having found a happy balance between expressing her feminine self, and maintaining the aspects of his male life (such as his job in a male dominated field that s/he dearly loves), and finding a SO who is good with it all.
... all this to caution you to approach it like my SO did while she was figuring all of this out, and it took some years. She was able to remove all personal agenda and attempts to figure it out, in favor of just going with the flow of expressing herself when she wanted to, all while appreciating his male self when he wanted to or needed to.
This may or may not work for you, but to live a life honestly going with your gut and finding joy in every moment, rather than trying to go along with what you think your gut is telling you, is the best possible way to find a course of action that you will be able to live with for the rest of your life.
Good luck!