Hey girls, a lot of new things in the last days, some good things and others not much.
Well, I called my girlfriends on the couch and began to explain that since Im 6 I wore girl clothes and makeup and that I felt like a woman often. I went straight to the point. She went into shock. She was doubting at first, but when I said I was serious, she was unresponsive. She asked many questions, wanted to know if I was gay, if I use panties, if anyone knew, if I had used her clothes, and other things. Much discussion took place that day, but at first she did not want to know any "dark" details. She said she would not break with me for this, but she did not have an opinion about it yet.
Over night she started crying a lot and closed a bit to talk. The next day, she started to cry even more, barely even talk, I pulled it and she gave no sign. She was very thoughtful and weird, had never seen her like that. Now she is a little better, but still weird when we talk on the subject. By the way, already introduced myself as Natalia.
She said I could use her makeup when I'm home alone. So we talked about makeup and she showed me how to use hers. But then, soon after, she cried. She is very afraid that I'm gay, even believing in me that I am not. She finds it very difficult not to associate gender identity with sexual preference. She is not ready to read material on the subject as well. She said she did research for five minutes about it at work, saw "some pictures" and began to cry.
I've never experienced it, I do not know what will happen and I'm worried about her. I feel more free with myself, but I feel kind of sad for her. She says that just imagening myself dressed as a woman she feels very sad. She has a very manly vision of me, because that's what I always passed to her.
I'm giving her time, dont want to rush things, but I can not say it was an easy progress. It has been complicated for us. I do not know how this story will continue, but hopefully in the end she runs better understanding of all this and we stay well.
I honestly do not know what to expect. I'm very open to tips, advice and all kinds of help at this point because I'm still a little lost :\
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