I wish I felt comfortable expressing myself freely to my main facebook circle which is something I have had on my mind lately. I think the reason why it seems like my self-esteem has taken a hit is because I am finding, more and more, that I care what other people think about me in many ways. I am dressed today, I want to go to the thrift store and have a look around because they are having a sale today. I need broccoli, jalapeno's and cereal from the store. I don't go do those things. Why? Because I am afraid of what other people will think. Granted, sometimes I am a bit paranoid and feel like it would take only one nasty dude with something to prove to seriously ruin my day. But what is stopping me? Only the thought of what people will think. I think it's hard to like yourself when you are being less true to yourself in this or a similar fashion. I keep worrying too what if the neighbors saw me. I just moved to a new apartment a couple weeks ago and I am getting a feel for the community. I sometimes see the darker side of things in my work and I know what bad things people can be capable of doing. Part of me just wants to just say "screw it" and walk out of here tall and proud. I am just kind of putting down my thoughts but I would like to hear some of yours?