I only have a few posts here, but if any of you have read my posts, you will see I often talk about my female "persona". Although my female self is always with me to a certain degree, there is a definite difference in my male self and female self. It is like a switch gets turned on and off. I am by no means a "manly man" by any sense. I am pretty androgynous in the sense of the word. My voice is not deep, I have long hair, my male clothes are androgenous, etc. But as soon as I feel my female side telling me she is coming out a change starts. It seems to switch over in my ritual of putting my underwear on first. As soon as the bra straps hook up and I look in the mirror to get ready to do my make-up, I become Molly. My speech changes, the way I walk changes, the magazines I read change, the shows and movies I watch change, the things I talk about with my GF change, etc. Even though some of things, and more which I have not mentioned,(you all will get to know me better as I post more, obviously ) will crossover in male mode, they come out in full force when I am in my female persona. Sometimes it feels like I am acting, I guess due to being in male mode more, even though I feel as if this is the real me and things are "flowing" better than ever. I truly become a female. Some female spirit takes over in me and it is wonderful. When this "spirit" has fully taken I over I never want it to "leave", which is the way I'm sure most of you feel. Is this how most of you experience your crossdressing? I guess to me it is WAY MORE than just "crossdressing". I also have to be completely in female mode in the physical sense, meaning I have to be clean shaven and most of the time have at least foundation on. How do you all experience your "crossdressing", in the general sense of the word? Are you like me and fully become your female persona? Do you even consider it to be a persona/or have personas?(I do even though I also consider it the real me, maybe I should just consider it the real me and when I am in male mode consider this my male persona lol). Sometimes it also can be somewhat confusing to integrate back into my male self, do any of you experience this? Even though I am 24 years old it is interesting to note that I still am learning so much about my self, or selves lol. Maybe I will integrate into a more "whole" me in the years to come, even though I like the "persona" way of experiencing and looking at it.