I have tried to explain to my wife why I enjoy dressing like a female, but to be honest I'm not sure where it began. My first memories of the desire was when I was about seven. In my fantasy I was strapped onto a table and put in a machine, when I was taken out of the machine I was a girl. I knew that I would have to dress
Ike a girl and be a girl forever, that thrilled me. This was while lying in bed and it could not have been sexual as I didn't know about sex then. I've asked myself why many times but really can't come up with any answer other than it feels good.