Hello everyone!
I would like to say I'm sorry in advance if this becomes long or rambling, but I feel the need to get this off my chest.
I have been dressing since the age of 11. Like many of us it started with Mom's stockings and went from there. There never was a time that I really got "caught" but Mom knew that I had been in her "things" and warned me to stop. My parents diviorced when I was 14 and I lived with Mom. I still dressed when I had the chance. After graduation, I remained living at home & working. Mom moved out of the house to be closer to work and to be with her SO. The joys of crossdressing were found! I could dress when ever I pleased and I did! I never went out and I didn't really know that there where others out there like me. Keep in mind this was before the internet! This is how things where until I met my true love!
I met ,(I'll call her) T on a chance meeting, almost 24 yrs ago. I was in love with her from the first time I met her. We were married 21 1/2 yrs ago. Our marriage has been blessed with 3 wonderful children ages 19, 17, & 15. Like any marriage there has been ups and downs, but through it all the love has remained. My dressing diminished for the first couple of years. The discovery of the internet and knowing that there are other CD's out there changed that! I discovered this site and have been a member for a very long time. Although, as you can see from the number of posts, not very active. I started dressing again & building my own wardrobe and collection. Then on Valintines Day 20 yrs ago, my wife discovered Julee. It was the worst day of my life. Of course all the usual questions were asked. I was asked to get rid of my things, which I got rid of some things but not all. I also attended councilng for my "problem".
I continued to dress off & on. Keeping my things hidden. Every so often I would slip up and T would find something or see a trace of makeup that I didn't remove. This continued until last week. There were many aguements about my dressing. But through it all the marriage and our devoution to each other has remained.
Last Thursday, Halloween of course, I had a weather related day off. I spent the day in feminine bliss. Even though I do not pass, I spent the entire day as Julee. As the joyfull day drew to a close, I put my things away and became a husband/dad once again. I had thought I had put everything away and removed all evidence that I had spent the day dressed, but I was ratted out by a tube of eye makeup remover! I had forgot it on our vanity! T discovered it and had reached her end! She confronted me and we had a huge argument. It wasn't real pretty!
Friday, T had the day off. She was going to spend the day shopping with our 2 oldest kids, both girls. Before she left, T set Julee at the curb for Friday trash service. Every stitch, heel, hair, and lipstick tube, gone!
So today I am going to go cold turkey with no more dressing. I love my wife & family with my whole heart. I know this is going to be hard, but I hope that I can live through it. I know in the back of my mind that the urges of CDing will not go away. But wife & family mean more to me.
Once again I am sorry for rambling. I hope that someone will actually read this. I feel much better for getting it off my chest. I will continue to visit this site and hopefully live through this tough time. I may continue to dress through all of you wonderful ladies.
Once again thanks for listening!