The absolutely worst thing for me is not being able to share my special part of me with anyone local. I live in such a strange place. I'm still not convinced that there isn't someone else close by to just play cards with, dress..share tips and stories over a glass of wine. But it is tough to feel so isolated sometimes. The other toughest part is to keep my darned hands off myself so I can just enjoy Jenny being Jenny without ending it too soon!!!!