Why??

[sometimes_miss]

Well, at some point in my early teens (I had been crossdressed many hundreds of times by then) I realized that I felt more 'normal' in girl clothes than in boy clothes. Even so, I resisted doing it, because I knew how the outside world would treat me if it learned that I was a 'sissy'. It was only ten years ago that I gave in, and regularly dressed as a girl on an almost daily basis. But of course, society hasn't changed in those decades, and it appeared that for a guy to be fem in any way pretty much meant being alone unless he was homosexual. So it's back to wanting to, but not doing so, that I have gone. I wish I didn't have to make the choice, maybe someday in the future it will be easier as the gender lines continue to flex. But for now, it seems that a man has to be, dress, and act like a man in order to have a girlfriend.

[AshleyW]

Hmm, that's a interesting question.

The first thing I did that could be described as "proto-crossdressing" was when I was 13. I was becoming very jealous of the girls at my school and the ways in which their bodies were changing, especially compared to the ways in which mine was. Some of them began dressing in ways that expressed their nascent sexuality. I wished I could do this too: I knew I wanted to express my sexuality in a feminine way, and for me at that time that meant skirts. So, I took a pair of my boxer shorts and cut the bottom out to make a rudimentary mini-skirt. I would wear it in my room, but always felt lots of guilt and shame afterwards. At 14 I started becoming very religious, and with a little help from Jesus I was able to supress and deny this part of my identity. For the next decade or so I had a few "slip-ups" here and there (trying on heels, trying on a dress, etc.), but was otherwise pretty much in the closet to myself. It wasn't until earlier this year that I finally learned what transgender actually means, accepted that that's what I am, and started crossdressing properly. And am I ever glad I did!!

[Dani0948]

When i was about 9, i frequently played dolls and dressup with my 2 younger sisters. What i remember most vividly was trying on a pair of high heeled pumps given to us by our next door neighbor. I was really sad when i outgrew them.

[mary something]

I've been doing it as long as I can remember. Why? It made me feel good.

[Stephanie_Birch]

I was fascinated with girl's clothing at a very young age, in my pre-teen years. Used to look through Sear's catalog at female clothes and wanted a dress. When I got into my teens and was more independent, I bought a pair of pantyhose. I don't think there ever an option not to do this. I had some sort of inner drive or need.

[Stephanie Morgan]

I've asked myself that same question many times. The only answer I ever came up with is a combination of curiosity and the fact that it was "wrong". I found a pair of my sisters panties and just had to know how they felt. Upon slipping them on (at the age of 9) I was instantly hooked. It just felt so right that I just had to keep doing it.

[Michelle504]

Because.

[BethanyCross]

I think we have all asked ourselves this many times. The first time I remember crossdressing, I was 7. For some reason I tried on my mother's tent dress which must have been like a tent on me! Why did I want to do this? I knew it was "wrong" because I took it to a room to try it on and got caught. I hate this part of myself because society does not accept it, yet I love this part of myself because it just makes me feel at peace and if I don't get occasional femme time I am a nervous wreck. A few nights ago I put on some acrylic nail overlays and, looking at my hands, they just seemed like they belonged that way.

[CynthiaD]

I don't think there's any answer to that question. My earliest memory of crossdressing was when I was three. By the time I was a teenager, it was "just something I did." I used to think that if I ever had a pretty dress all my own that I'd put it on and never take it off. I never wondered why. I still don't.

[kelly10]

I don't know why I like ice cream, or steak, or hot wings either but they sure make life fun! Plus I could never find a really persuasive answer to, "Why not?"

[Lexi Moralas]

I have up searching for the answer to that question long ago.

[Jaymees22]

Sometimes I wonder why, but always end up knowing why not.

[Seana Summer]

Why? It just feels good.

[EmilyPith]

I did/do it because it's the only thing that seems to make me feel better.


As far as why?
There is no one answer.
And nobody can answer this question but you, because we are all so different.

Lots of answers to lots of reasons.
Childhood exploration? Need to play with taboos? Always felt like you should be wearing this instead of that?

Are you a trasngenderist or just someone who simply likes panties?

Your answer is your answer... it's all very personal. Keep looking until you find the truth that fits for you.

[Terrylynn]

I used to play with my sister and her friends rather than other boys. When I was about 5 or so my father told me to stop playing with them. I guess he didn't feel it was appropriate for his son to exclusively play with girls. I didn't stop so one day he threatened to punish me by making me wear a dress. He thought that would dissuade me but something clicked and from then on I associated girls and the pleasure of their companionship with clothes.

At times I really wished he would have given me a dress to wear. At age 7 I started wearing my sisters clothes whenever I had the chance. It just made me feel so wonderful.

[Lynn Marie]

Facinated with women's lingerie for as long as I can remember. Penny's and Sears catalogs were like kiddy porn for me. My first remembrance of my mother was of her in court getting custody of me in a skirtsuit, stockings and heels. She looked hot! I've loved that look ever since even though my mother never looked that good again in the three years I lived with her.

[Mollyanne]

As to why, well the only thing I can remember is that I was curious and when I first put on stockings and panties all I could think about is how nice it felt and I never wanted to stop. I went further and further and enjoyed it more and more. I hated male clothing and just wanted to dress as a girl and be a girl. I guess my female hormones overcame my male hormones!!!!!

Molly

[Gillian Gigs]

This is the eternal CD question, and for most of us it never really gets answered to our satisfaction. Mick Jagger must have been a CD'er, as he sang, "I can't get no satisfaction".

My case runs a bit different than many, my first experience and after that was beyond my control. Terrylynn tells of how her father threatened to punish her by dressing her as a girl, well my Dad did also. I was dressed many times, always in panties with other clothes added at times. The first time is still vividly in my head, I was 4, then things blur out from there. It didn't help having 2 older sisters taunting me and telling me I was a sissy who wore panties also. I would have been 10 or 11, maybe, when the punishment and threats stopped.

Yet the why question is still there, as in why did I choose to start dressing of my own free will around the age of 13. Was it sexual? Was I attempting to recreate how the clothes felt? All I know is that after my first "explosion", while dressed, I was hooked. Why did, or could I not break free of all of this? Everything that I have read over the years suggests that between the traumatic start and my "first explosion" everything set in really deep into my psyche.

I have moved beyond the why's now, and just accept the things I can not change. I see myself as being a normal guy who lives, for the most part, a vanilla life with a little sauce on the side. Who doesn't like a little spice anyway!

[MysticLady]

Just like anything else. Why did you decide too or not decide too, do it?

[phred]

Been wearing panties since I was 5, just because they feel so good. Nothing like the feel of stockings on freshly shaved legs!!

[Joanne108]

There was a bra in the laundry basket. I saw it and thought; I wonder what that would look like on me? I tried it on put some rolled up sock in each cup and then I knew. I also knew I would do it again.

[NicoleScott]

Simple answer? It's in our personal grid program.

Dang. I must have stayed home from school sick the day they went over "personal grid programs". What a shame, as it seems to be the simple answer to just about everything.

[Cynthia99]

I don't know and doubt you will get an answer that satisfies you. Its true, I enjoy it and would prefer to always wear panties and a bra. I am drawn to feminine things - clothing, makeup, jewelry - although I am not one of the ones here who are lucky enough to pass as female when dressed. I liked the way girls looked better than boys - still do - and wanted to be more like them. That likely does not make a lot of sense, but is all I can come up with.

[dana digs sweaters]

Why ask Why?
At 5, a wonderfully soft white cardigan beckoned me to take it out of a sister's room to see how it felt to be inside of it.
To feel the softness all over my arms insured it was not to be the last time.
To progress from there took my sisters help in a complete dressup.
To progress to an adult the 1st time on my own with a complete outfit with makeup & wig..............

[daviolin]

Why? Who cares. I was born to crossdress. It started at 5 years old, and never let up. Daviolin