First I feel I should let you know that I have no delusions of ever passing as a woman and really don't care to.
I enjoy dressing and while I have tried the whole makeup and wig thing and have in fact "seen" my feminine self in the mirror once or twice, it is too much work for too little return and I just enjoy wearing the clothes.
So, here's the deal...
I am tired of sitting at home by myself while dressed.
I did some research and found a bar not too far from my apartment that is reportedly VERY trans friendly and even stopped by right at opening time to chat with the bartender with full plans on coming back later for a beer in my new boots and skirt.
At the appointed time, I got dressed, which includes bra with forms, panties, satin slip, leggings(it's cold outside) skirt, boots and a nice sweater.
I get in the car and drive to the bar and sit in the car.
All I can think about is being "the guy in the dress."
For some reason I couldn't help but think that the "girls" would avoid me because I wasn't dressed enough and the others because, well, I was a guy in a skirt with boobs...
I know I am overreacting and probably would of had a fine time if I had gotten up the nerve to actually go inside but I just couldn't get over the fear of being laughed at by "both sides."
For what it's worth, I am going to try again next Saturday which is their regular Trans night...
Thanks for any comments and suggestions.
Shelby