We each are driven to cross dressing by our wanting to express our feminine identity. At times our urges are strong to very strong, sometimes we are pulled away from our desires.
Recently I was faced with the holidays, a serious illness, family obligations, visiting with my children, and of course my work. Suddenly I was drawn away from my routine of dressing. At first the business keeps me from thinking of what I would like to be doing. With an illness you hopefully go to bed and let your immune system take over. In addition with guests that are not aware of your dressing in the house this forces you to keep a lid on it.
In my case my daily structure is damaged. Things just do not go as I hoped. Nervousness is a feeling that sneaks into the mix. Difficulty in sleeping soon appears. Your thinking is more directed at feminine activities such as clothes a woman is wearing, that lovely woman’s presentation, or beautiful hair. Things are not complete. My perception of the world seems hostile. No matter what you eat or drink nothing is improved. You try a movie, watch a tennis match, watch a game on TV, or take a drive, and nothing seems to relieve the irritation.
The irritations disappeared as soon as I was able to dress. What a shift in emotions. What a wonderful afternoon and evening. Once I began dressing the warm comfortable feelings returned. I find such wonderful solace and a quieting effect each time I express my femininity by dressing. Here is hoping that you find happiness in your dressing.