I have gone through so much of the repression and self denial, self loathing. A year ago, I waived the white flag. The process is not an easy one. I have had many strange and sometimes difficult days this past year. One thing I can say, at least as it applies to me is to not get too wrapped up in the actual dressing part. Sounds kinda strange on a crossdressing site.... ultimately what we are here for. But, for me, just realizing I am someone who has a strong feminine side. I was born with it. As I gain self acceptance, and let it out, I feel better, calmer, more relaxed and at peace. I am not there yet, not totally. Maybe I will never be there totally. But I am doing better than I was. I am a good person who wishes to do good for others. I keep my priorities of kids and wife before anything else. For those who I am not fond of, or have issues with, I merely try to let them be and have as little to do with them as possible. I am a good person. Keep telling yourself this. You are a good person. It is ok to dress in a way which makes you feel comfortable, or that you enjoy however it is that you enjoy it.