Hi all,
WOW the amount of well thought out and reflective responses to this thread have amazed and honoured me . . . Thanks.
It is funny, after I posted this thread I had to run off to and play in my old day job (those of you who have read my older posts know which day job I am talking about) taking on the role of a very stoic, non empathetic person. By the end of the day I was emotionally drained. Specifically, I had to mask all the emotions I have been cultivating "en boy" and just be a really, really mean %&$#@. In a way it was extremely hard to keep that façade up and when I got home I was able to revert back to nice me. However, I could still see that %&$#@ hiding behind my eyes saying "Hey just let me out for awhile . . . I am sure you will like it" . Nope, put that away and went back to being me and still feel great.
Again, I thank you all for your responses and would love to reply to each but I have decided on a group thanks and a direct response to others. But the sentiment is to all.
Well said Kate and exactly what I was alluding to. If we embrace these emotions whether en boy or en girl, it goes a long way to making us whole.
Would never discount a response. For you dressing does not change who you are as you are the same both ways. Indeed as you indicate you sometimes find dressing boring and "feel silly" when trying to present. Perhaps there being no requirement to express something is what ignites this boredom and makes it less appealing than it is to others . . . not hacking on you, just saying that is all.
Very true. But it could also be that releasing the everyday concerns also allows you to express the emotional responses which go with that release.
Hi Kim . . . very interesting point.
Exactly and as you have accepted that, dressing as you do, is merely part of you and you feel good doing so because you can express the full range regardless of being more boy or girl in dress.
Hi Leigh . . . this makes sense from an emotional perspective. It is plausible your femme side is quelling the stereotypical male responses (anger/frustration) and allowing you to be more you.
Hi Jaymee. I too was a very emotional child but the military beat that out of me. Now that I have rediscovered those emotions "en boy" as well as "en girl", I have never felt more complete.
I agree, being en femme makes it easier to express these emotions.
Good point Gendermutt
I am with you on this one. Same for me now and I feel very comfortable with who I am boy or girl
Hi Katey . . . I agree but I certainly wish it would move itself along a bit faster
Hi Reine,
Definitely IMO. When I first began to rediscover this part of me (CDing) I over compensated at work . . . super manly man, got back into UFC style fighting, volunteered for all sorts of macho type stuff. It wasn't until I let that go and incorporated the full spectrum of human emotion that I felt truly at peace with both boy me and girl me.
Hugs all
Isha