With my job ,and my son being in my current location i have tryed to be as optomistic and positiveas as i can. Im 48 years old this month ,single, and looking like i will be for lifetime. With the death of my space, i used the location and area to find and start conversation with gg`s here in wester colorado, some would talk (type) some would not, some would or could understand some of my (our) plight, others would not even try. out of all of the friendings and trying to just talking with gg`s in my area and months to years .i worked at it. I came away with two girls that tryed to date me and maybe three pen pals that just could not see me as a guy but loved to talk on line, all of this is just background fluff,
My irritation is there are just so few gg`s with open minds and loving harts ,in my rural area my aspect of ever finding one, drop ever year i get older. My son is in his early teens , i need to be here 6 to 10yrs more for him. Moving my job and prospects of finding a job drop evey yr if i could move.
I may find one or two gg frinds here in town that know, i my find love again (maybe) but as for erica she may just stay in the closet and have a online existance .
Its just irritatingly unrealistic (i hate getting smarter and older)