What made you decide to become a member on this forum? Here's my story.
Last year, I was suffering a long series of nervous breakdowns over gender. I was extremely depressed, I hated being male, wanted to die and be reincarnated as a girl. I had also done some research on transgender people. I read a lot of articles, forum posts, and even saw youtube videos on transgender people and MTF TS transitions.
At that time I was very much waivering whether I was a CD or a TS (or even possibly something else). I just wasn't sure. I related to most everything I read on being transgender (and specifically transsexual) on the internet. I related to most of what I had seen in videos about transgender people (and specifically transitioning MTS transsexuals), and their childhood and adult pre-transition TS feelings.
I still wasn't sure. I thought even though I identify with all the TS feelings, maybe I'm just a cross-dresser. By this point, it was August, and I had just fired the psychic whom is number 1 on my resentment list, and for her mistreatment of me and failing to see that I had any GD issues. I started doing Google searches on "crossdresser vs transsexual". A number of links came up all coming from one place, crossdressers.com. I found at least four old CD vs TS threads.
Come September, I decided to become a member here and that I should post my own CD vs. TS thread. I got a lot of responses very quickly. Some telling me I was a TS, some telling me I was a CD, but most telling me that I should see a therapist. I was unemployed at the time, and I could not afford to see a therapist (or so I thought - I found out the other night that the therapists in L.A. work on a sliding scale). I was also terrified of the thought of trusting a therapist given my experience with the psychic. I know what you're thinking of most or all psychics being con artists, but the fact is I had trusted her to help me and she failed me.
I started posting on the CD forums and eventually I bought a new wig and got a makeup lesson. I also started PMing some of you about my gender issues and the psychic, and by the start of 2014 I felt comfortable posting on the TS forum (and also posting about the psychic). On Friday night, I went to my first transgender support group, and I hope to finally start seeing a therapist soon. I will keep you posted with my journey and everything that happens along the way.
So, to everyone else here, and I mean everyone, regardless of your gender identity. What propelled you to join this forum? Was it a cross-dressing issue you didn't understand? Fashion advice? Makeup? Wanting to learn more about gender dysphoria? Contemplating transition? Your SO is a cross-dresser? Acceptance of being a CD? Unsure if you're CD or TS? Or it could be a million things I haven't thought of in this paragraph? Please share your stories.
Originally Posted by Hell on Heels
