Let me explain. I'm a female who enjoys dressing as a man on occasion.
And yet, I don't feel like a man, per se. I'm still me, still female but now I can 'be a man'. I can go around other men without them viewing me as a sex object or their girlfriends viewing me as competition. I can be all the things that being a male entails for me: Confident, headstrong, and aggressive among other things.
When I'm dressed as a female, I don't feel like a female. I still watch lame movies, make perverted jokes, and generally act manly. When I wear dresses, skirts, etc however, I'm able to 'be a woman' and all the characteristics that THAT entails such as nurturing, peacemaker, and submissive among other things.
So, the main question that keeps popping into my head concerning this whole gender business is: I don't feel like any particular gender at any particular time unless I make a concentrated effort to 'act' like that gender. So then, what do I do? What am I?
The main time that this is obvious is in relationships. In a relationship with a man, I'm very submissive and 'womanly' whereas in a relationship with a woman I'm very much in-charge and 'manly'. I act that way regardless of whether I'm dressed as a man or a woman but it takes that costume change for me to truly feel comfortable acting either way.
I've heard various terms such as bi-gender and gender fluid but I don't know if these apply to me. I'd love to hear peoples' thoughts on this and apologize for the long post