Hello,
I am joining this discussion because there has always been some mental confusion about gender, gender roles and what is real for me. I've always lived as a female, but have never liked getting dressed up to go out. I wear pants to work and for most other times. Men's pants don't fit, but I wear jeans and other pants with flies. Men's shirts often do fit me and I have both "blouses" and shirts in my closet.
Having grown up at the time of the resurgence of the women's movement, I was further confused in identity. I am married to a male cross dresser. We recently have been talking about how well suited we are to one another because of our feelings about gender and gender roles and appearance.
I don't necessarily want to change much about my appearance or be more male. I just always wanted to be comfortable and not have people around me comment, question or make me feel bad because I'm not feminine enough. I've often passed for a guy without trying to and I kind of enjoy this.
Would welcome any comments and idea exchange. I'm very new at letting these feelings out. My husband recently retired and got more involved on line in CD forums so it has brought out emotional responses in me too.