Ok, so I get very few times to dress(about every 3 months or so, last time dressed before this Sunday was Christmas Eve). Anywho! I finally got a time to dress this previous Sunday, and I was ecstatic about it. Once I heard everyone was going to be out of the house, the heart started beating. As soon as that car went out of the drive way, my hands were shaking with excitement.
So I began, doing my normal routine of getting out all the fixings for my session, bra, panties, skirt, leggings and a sleeveless shirt and some stilettos(Had the entire outfit planned out). Though with all the glee and giddiness, I was still deathly scared of being caught. I knew I had some time to myself, though my sister was to be arriving back from a trip sometime in the afternoon so I did not know when that would be.
Every item went on, and after each one I moved the curtain to check the driveway to make sure no one was pulling up. Now, it was picture time(as much as I hate the term, April is starting to refer to them as "Selfies" ) Now, doing this I knew I was leaving the windows unattended, so if someone were to pull up there would be a good chance I'm caught. Taking the risk, I walk to the other side of the house where the only decent sized mirror, and lighting as well, and snapped away. Then BAM! Car door slam! My heart sank, literally sank, and I raced to the window(in stilettos mind you!). I checked the windows, and it turned out to be the neighbors car.
My heart was still racing, my bra was closing in on my chest, leggings gripping my legs, my heart was hurting, and I started to get woozy and nearly fell down. I literally thought I was having a heart attack, and was going to die at the very young age of 18. This was too much for me, so the clothes came off, and I went to my room exhausted and just cried.
I'm stressing more than I'm dressing, which is killing me. I have this massive amount of femininity that I need to express, but the best way of doing caused me to have a panic attack.
I feel as if it's too much for right now Comments anyone? Sorry for the long post.