I have really enjoyed my time here. You are a bunch of wonderful people. You have been open and accepting, and I have never gotten a single negative comment.
It seems to me that the majority of you are or want to be full time girls. That is awesome. I respect you and see that you have a TON of courage for putting yourselves out that way. That takes a lot of 'balls'.
I'm not quite where most of your seem to be. (Big surprise, right?) I'm not a guy, I'm not a girl, I'm something in between. Role-wise, I identify as female. Body-wise, I'm beast who does martial arts and mountain biking and enjoys getting roughed up & sweaty.
I see a bunch of folks here who are just coming out or just discovering their issues with gender norms and identity. Some have freedom to express themselves, some have to hide.
So, where do I fit here?
I'm questioning the feeling that I get that the default aim is to transition or pass. That "being a girl" is the goal. Why is that? Why isn't there something in between? The site name is 'crossdressers.com', not 'iwannabeagirl.com'. Isn't this place about validation and exploring how we see our identities? About how we appreciate and enjoy being pretty, which happens to work against our natural gender presentation?
Is it purely a population issue? Am I so much in a minority that most of you don't understand where I am? I have to wonder if there isn't a segment of our folks who might be in my position who get pushed in one direction or another based on the social pressure to present as a girl?
Like I said, I have never recieved a single negative comment from any of you. Having said that, I feel disconnected from a lot of you, that my posts are just 'noise' in the pink fog.
I *am* a crossdresser. I wear girl stuff every day. When I get home from work I bail out of my guy gear and put on a skirt and cami because it *feels right*.
>confused<
I'm feeling kind of isolated, and I don't think I *should* be, especially here.
I look forward to hearing your thoughts.
<3
-MM