Disclaimer: Before you post in response, please do not provide make-up tips for older gals as this is not the intent of the post. It is about your experience as an aging CDer. I would hate to have the thread moved to Beauty as this is not it's intent . . . thanks.
Hi all,
Figured it was time for another musing of Isha's somewhat odd mind. You can thank Kristyn (aka Hell on Heels) for this topic as she gave me the idea.
The first time I fully dressed I was 17 years old and was in my first relationship with a gal who was shall we say was "very opened minded". It was her idea to which I responded "no way" (albeit internally I was screaming YES!) I let her talk me into it - "Sure Isha, let her" . I had just joined the military, was living in Germany, weighed 140 pounds, youthful skin and could get away for days without shaving. So by the time she was finished I made a somewhat pretty girl. That was the first and last time I dressed until last August, 32 years later.
Needless to say my first attempt at dressing 32 years later was horrendous. Staring back at me was not the pretty 17 year old girl I remembered but a slightly more mature "dude in drag" . Now I am no expert in make-up now but with much practice I think I am beginning to find my mark. However, to be honest . . . age and looking femme is something I struggle with. My skin is not elastic anymore, complexion is less than smooth, lines and crowfeet abound and those pesky dark circles under my eyes make me look like Rocky Racoon (a nod out to any Beatles fans). Let's not even go to the neck department . . . gobble, gobble. The worst part is the same products I use to create a smooth complexion (foundation) only help to accentuate the lines.
Don't get me wrong I am not complaining (okay perhaps a little) but I sometimes find myself wondering why the preoccupation with trying to look younger? I don't feel this way when I am "en boy" in fact I could not care less. However, I would be lying if I said I did not care when I am "en femme". I look around and I see a multitude of older GGs who are all beautiful in their own right with or without make-up. They have lines, sagging skin, poor complexions but still carry their age with grace and dignity. I love every laugh line, wrinkle and age worn aspect of my wife's face . . . but I still cannot make the leap to myself.
Perhaps it is just me looking in the mirror remembering that 17 year old girl or perhaps it is just vanity (probably a bit of both ). Not a big issue in my life as I know I will have to work through it and just accept myself "en femme" with a more mature look.
Just wondering if anybody else has felt this way and perhaps would like to share some thoughts for those gals who may be approaching that point in their life when the "young girl" stops staring back at you in the mirror and you see someone older instead - REMEMBER THOUGH . . . No make-up tips please. It is about acceptance of aging in this thing we do.
Hugs
Isha