conversations since last Tuesday. Not at all about CDing but the fact I revealed that I crossdress, we have released a wall between us that has allowed us to talk about our lives in ways we never have. She wanted to go back and talk about a very sensitive and heavy subject that she has refused to really address head on, the death of her son. We took out his school work and artwork and read a lot of it together. It was incredible how much she released and talked about her feelings. I am so emotionally moved by the whole situation as well. I have very recently lost my Dad and am about to lose Mom. We were able to continue our conversation about the direction of our life and the fabulous potentials lie before us. Really, really connecting and talking about us.
She had prefaced all of these wonderful discussions with, "I'm not ready to talk about about you know what. I don't know what to think yet." This actually took the pressure off and enabled the truth flow. She asked me to treat her like a Queen. I made love to her, took her to breakfast, did the dishes, cooked her a pot roast her way, got the cat groomed (totally her job, I take care of the dog), took off her shoes and kissed her feet. Actually I had a great time. She went out after an easy morning and bought about 10 peices of clothing and insisted on showing me and my sister, who dropped in while she was gone. She bought skirts and blouses that were similar styles that I admitted were ones that appealed to me!! She then pulled out a skirt that was similar to one that I had suggested she buy becuase I liked it while Christmas shopping. She then proceeds to give a velvet black shirt with exquisit buttons to my sister, Wow! what a score, sis says. Indeed! Then my queen says these two other things are for her GG friend. The rest are for work. OK, all very nice things. She's torturing me. After my sister leaves to go out to her car for a few minutes she bring the skirt out and says,"Feel the weight of this skirt, it's so well made." So I did, not an unusual thing in our relationship, we do buy each other clothes. Looked at her and held it to my waist and said that it would fit me. She gave me an odd little smile and said not to do that. I handed it back and she just looked in my eyes and went and put it away.
I abolutely positively undeniably am greatful this is out to her. Even if she wants no part of my other half our life is much better already.
Thanks everyone for your support.
Love, Jo