It took over 30 years to figure it out but counseling cleared things up for me that CDing has been a sexual addiction for me. Especially with it starting at puberty, the lack of acceptance I have for myself when dressed in public and not feeling any kind of feminine characteristics. For anyone though it can be different, it's all in the way that you use it and it being sexual is not a bad thing unless it's keeping one from accomplishing necessary daily activities or if it causes high blood pressure and too many heart palpitations.